I feel kinda lost. Having lost the one person I always went to whenever I needed to talk, or even just because that person was my best friend. I feel myself reaching for the phone to text them and cry to them about everything I'm feeling, but I also know there's no point in doing so. My evenings and nights are lonely now, just spent by myself listening to music or rewatching some show for the 100th time, just to pass time that I would have usually spent talking to that one person. It feels like every time I open myself up to someone and let them into my life, they also end up leaving in a few years. I'm kinda treating this blog like a personal diary just because it feels good to write all my feelings down, because lately I've just been feeling like shit. I thought I could just bury everything away and be my normal self, but turns out there's a reason why I'm the way I am. I feel hurt more often than some people do, and I also do not tell anyone anything because I hate being a burden on people. Hoping this reaches people who also feel the same way, so they know they're not alone :)
